Archives for the month of: March, 2014

Slave Leigh is summoned to fuck herself with a hefty cucumber despite her resistance.

Little did I know that my joke about the splendid size of a cucumber to my friend would result in a mind blowing fuck session. cucumberIndeed, that is exactly what happened at the direction of Master.

Straight from the chilly refrigerator, I feared it was obnoxiously brisk. Instead the firm, rounded end, soothed my steaming hot clit and massaged it into a preorgasmic frenzy.

“Who owns that pussy Kitten?…tell Master….he wants to know.”

“Master owns this pussy” I replied,  shivering with thrill as the cucumber danced upon my bulging  fuck button.  Its warty surface rubbing against my pussy sent waves of delight.

“That’s right.  Now fuck yourself” he ordered….

to be continued


Will Leigh use the cucumber that gave a good fuck in her salad later that afternoon or will she discard it after training?


Read an erotic novel about BDSM by Sydney R. Saige.



How do I begin this journey?

There truly is not a “right” way to begin a journey into being ancouple embracing online BDSM slave.  It is a path that begins as you desire for it to begin and it grows based upon your curiosity and perseverance.  A great way to approach your online research,  is to take what you like and to leave the rest. For example, don’t let a structured hardcore source ruin your concept of what this lifestyle or playtime means.

What is the right way to practice BDSM?

When I first started exploring, I spent quite some time researching different keywords to bring about the answer that I was looking for. There is not a cookie cutter way to bring about a full description of what being a submissive entails.  There are some key principles to understand to set up the dynamics of communication for yourself and your Master.  Your Master will outline those expectations immediately through your interactions.  A part of the beauty of being a submissive is to watch the relationship unfold naturally without knowing all of the answers to your questions.

When first working with a Master, you will quickly learn his likes, needs, preferences and tolerance.  Each Master brings about a new flavor to the experience.

Remember that as you work to be a satisfying submissive, that your Master is working equally as hard to set up the scenario for a specific result. Although it may appear effortless, being a good Master is also challenging.

Self Esteem

Being a submissive is not about is taking a beating to your self esteem. Be certain that you can make the transition between your relationship and what it entails versus who you are in your every day life.  I will never forget an online post that broke my heart early on.  It was written by a woman that described how she gave her mind, body, soul to her Master.  When he left her, she felt lost, alone and terrified.  It’s important to stress that the journey is not about your Master being perfect, or about you surrendering your common sense.  Approach the journey your Master is leading you to as a place of learning.  A good Master, will almost always leave you in a place of adoration for his complexity and playing out his visions.

As a side note, no one can “take your soul”…it is yours for your entire lifetime.  You may experience a feeling of shedding a part of your personality and the essence of who you are during your work with your Master, but when the session ends, you have the tools needed to return to what kind of person you are.  Simply put, keep your life balanced and healthy.


Sometimes a part of the BDSM play may consist of language that you may think as being offensive.  If you find that the words being used are damaging to your well being, then you may want to re-think your choice of Master, or find a way to share with him the reason why the word is difficult to accept.  Often, you can work through the barriers that are getting you stuck.  But, also know that if a Master says for example that you are a *worthless xyz…and it bothers you, you will want to put your needs first and evaluate if BDSM is enhancing or damaging your sexual experience.


Often work with a Master will bring you a new level of confidence.  By sharing sacred sexual events, it can begin to unfold your hidden sexual desires.  Having a safe place to explore them with a Master that genuinely wants to see you happy makes a world of difference.  It is my hope that you too will find a Master that is able to bring about growth in your sexuality.

Knowing Your Place

The sooner you can come to terms with the concept that your Master is at the top and you are beneath him, the quicker you will be able to understand the concept of BDSM.  Keep in mind that this mindset may seem a bit intimidating (trust me, I went to an all female college that taught us to be strong women), but with the right Master, this concept can bring about more pleasure than you could ever imagine.

Setting Up A Time Frame For Beginning and Ending A BDSM Relationship

From what I have heard, anything over six months straight can be damaging to your sexuality.  Taking a break is highly recommended.  Since being a submissive requires you to push through your sexual barriers to explore outside of your comfort zone, it can over time bring about feelings of not having any boundaries on your sexual preferences.  Keeping balance and harmony in your BDSM exploration is key.  I’m not suggesting that this is always the case, but it is information to be aware of to prevent damage to your well being.

Here are a few sites that I explored for information early on:

Erotic Lactation.  The definition of lactation for adult play.

Extreme Restraints.  Items such as bondage gear, sex toys, dildos & insertables, vibrating sex toys, chastity devices, strap ons, nipple toys, mouth gags, remote sex toys, collars and a pleatheria of toys.

Expectations.  Topics revolve around instilling patience, managing expectations, consistency trust, and developing communication skills.

An Array of Adult Toys.  Kinky bondage toys from a reliable source that has been around for quite some time.

Taken In Hand.  A resource for setting up a power play scenario.


Good Luck In Your Journey…may it be unforgettable and safe.

Sydney R. Saige


*If you or someone you know is not in a consenting relationship and need assistance to leave I have included an important resource:

To end and abusive relationship that is harming your well being please call 1-800-799-7233.


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Leigh describes how Master pushes her to see things his way with regards to nipple piercing.

One of Master’s ways to mold me into his toy was to start a discussion about piercing my gigantic nipples. He expressed his desire to watch nipple ringsmy painted fingernails play with the silver rings attached to my teats.

He thought it would be “hot” to see me do so.

I fought him on this matter without much avail. He broke me down with several punishments and some extensive training on what it means to fully serve a Master. When I finally surrendered and agreed to see stuff his way, he surprisingly agreed to meet me in the middle.

A set of silver manual nipple rings was purchased. The round half inch circle had a narrow opening with two miniature balls on each side of the tips of the ring. These devilish contraptions held my nipple in an erect manner while applying enough pressure to make my pussy dripping wet and to feel the obedience to the liking of Master.

Often I was instructed to wear them under my work shirt and feel the stimulation and special torture they provided.  Unknown to me, they increased the feeling of being “owned”.  In fact, the second they were removed, the feelings of being connected to him slowly faded.

I was given the task of photographing them on myself and …

…to be continued

Can Leigh continue to keep Master satisfied with her faux nipple rings or will he encourage her to take the next step towards the real thing?


Read about Leigh’s first time Master by Sydney R. Saige.

This past Friday night, Master and I not only met up for Italian food, but for a bit of unknown bdsm cock and pussy play.

Each day this romantic coupleweek, including today, I was instructed to insert a small vibrator in the small opening just above my clit. There was no result or activity and I tired of this game, but inserted it anyhow to display trust.

However, things were about to change. After we were seated, I saw that Master wore a special ring on his masculine finger. As I soon discovered, it was not an ordinary ring. The silver band and black stone controlled the miniature vibrator nestled inside my warm wetness. One touch of the black stone and it was as if he flicked my ignition switch. In between his sips of scotch he gave me a look that explained exactly how much he loves his control. The game began with turning the vibrator repeatedly on and then off again. I’ll admit, I was amused and surprised at this adventure.

“Feel how hard you make me.

His dimples curved mischievously as he smiled. “Your cheeks are red” he exclaimed as he turned on the toy…

…to be continued

Will Master take their play to a public level? Can Leigh get away with bdsm cock and pussy play with her Master at the restaurant?

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Slave Leigh shares about how Master used his methods to punish her with nipple bondage.

Master’s nipple fetish lead him to punish me cleverly. For example, he did not explicitly tell me that I was being punished.  Itclothespins on nipples‘s not often he chooses this method of discipline, but when he does, it keeps me alert and attentive to his desires.

Our session suddenly began with clothespins biting at my pink eraser shaped nipples.  The clips stayed on beyond what I thought was a reasonable amount of time.  To make matters worst, Master

“The clothespins were biting at my pink eraser shaped nipples”

left me hanging without a reply or approval to remove them.  He literally disappeared for a period of time, leaving me to decipher if I was to continue being obedient or to stop the punishment.   I was heated and mad because I felt that he was breaking  my trust in his judgement of how long nipples can endure clips …

…to be continued

Will Master punish Leigh with more harsh nipple bondage since she showed great disrespect for their training?


Read a novel that includes harsh punishment by a strict Master by Sydney R. Saige.